retreat

fleet foxes, birds and seals

Had a little bit of a nature moment on my walk to work this morning. First, I spotted this crow drop a mussel from about 30 ft to the pavement to crack it open. I knew they did that but I had never seen it happen before. Then a moment later, I look over to false creek and notice a seal swimming by. How lovely.
So, in the spirit of enjoying the rhythms of the planet, I thought I'd share this video.

my hand is a hole

Someone added a rather lovely element to one of the pics I put up the other day. So lovely. I need to get a dymo gun.

Martha has my heart.

Poetry is no place for a heart that's a whore
And I'm young & I'm strong
But I feel old & tired
Overfired

And I've been poked & stoked
It's all smoke, there's no more fire
Only desire
For you, whoever you are
For you, whoever you are

You say my time here has been some sort of joke
That I've been messing around
Some sort of incubating period
For when I really come around
I'm cracking up
And you have no idea

No idea how it feels to be on your own
In your own home
with the fucking phone
And the mother of gloom
In your bedroom
Standing over your head
With her hand in your head
With her hand in your head

I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
When all I wanted was to be good
To do everything in truth
To do everything in truth

Oh I wish I wish I wish I was born a man
So I could learn how to stand up for myself
Like those guys with guitars
I've been watching in bars
Who've been stamping their feet to a different beat
To a different beat
To a different beat

I will not pretend
I will not put on a smile
I will not say I'm all right for you
When all I wanted was to be good
To do everything in truth
To do everything in truth


- Martha Wainwright

reunion

When they finally saw each other again it was like, magically, nothing else had ever been. All of the others just fell away and they were back where they left off. It had been awhile, and many distractions and missteps along the way. Once they were together again it was hard to believe that they had wasted so much time apart. They sat with their eyes locked for a long time. Suddenly, she broke into a huge grin and kicked him gently under the table. They both knew that tonight would be the night…the night that would change everything.

The coffee shop was warm and slightly damp from the rain steaming off of the people huddled inside. The place was mostly filled with students. They all sat very still, their faces lit by the glow of their laptops. The couple laughed and made up stories about them one by one. They jotted the occasional note in their journals and wrote a story together. They felt invincible and happy. They sipped first one tea and then another and then another. Then they noticed the woman in the corner. She sat alone. She too was drinking tea and every once in awhile she dabbed at her eyes with a napkin. She was neither reading nor writing. She had her journal open but the page was blank. The couple paused but neither of them had anything to say. They both fell silent as they both suddenly felt the chill.

A flicker of a flicker of a moment passed.

This time it was his turn to smile. Suddenly, his hand was on hers and everyone and everything else melted away. They leaned in over the table…kissed each other lightly for the first time, and then picked up their coats and left the café.

today

When my friend Kenneth moved to Austin, Texas last year he attempted to throw away a huge box of his photographs. Thankfully I didn't let him and today my daughter and I went around the neighborhood and stapled them all to poles. I quite like that they're out there for people to wonder about.

admit

lucky

In light of today's picture I am tempted to write about just how fortunate I feel to have so many awesome people in my life. Especially about how lovely and supportive and downright entertaining they can be. How much they make me laugh at myself, at them and at the world in general. How honoured I am that they share their joys with me and their sorrows. How lucky I feel to have so many great friends AND a fabulous family...but that would be cheesy. So I won't.